Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Attitude Adjustment

Let me start this post by acknowledging I'm in serious need of an attitude adjustment. Though the intelligent thing to do, in this situation, may be to refrain from blogging, I really just feel like getting it out of my system.

You've been warned, friends... :-)

So here's the thing...I'm tired. I'm cranky. I'm tired of watching my man hurt. I'm currently in the middle of the week I've been dreading since we found out our baby was gone on April 25. And to top it off, there has been a tragedy in the Waco community I truly cannot get out of my mind. Add in some seriously annoying things that keep happening this week and you will find me with a very heavy heart.

On Sunday evening, my Facebook timeline was filled with people mourning the loss of a friend who had gone to be with the Lord following a car accident. He left behind a wife and infant daughter. While this would be tragic regardless of who the person was, I learned yesterday it was someone my co-workers and I met at Baylor Line Camp in July.

We had dinner together and chatted on and off throughout the long evening. An incredibly nice guy. A relatively recent grad. A man who told us all about his beautiful wife and precious baby girl. And now he's gone.

He was actually in some of the photos I took that night but it feels odd to share them at this point. I absolutely did not know him well but I cannot imagine having my man abruptly ripped out of my life. In an instant. Or having a baby to raise who may not remember the father who adored her.

Of course, this time last year I also couldn't imagine having a precious baby go to heaven before I did either....

All that to say that we truly aren't promised tomorrow. And though I should be seizing the moment with this fresh reminder, all I really want to do is sit down and sob.

While I'm 100% certain that has a lot to do with Friday looming ahead (that's another post for another day), the fact of the matter is that people's lives are being turned upside down each and every day. Those we know. Those we don't. Those we meet in passing and assume we'll see another day.

And that's really hit me afresh this week. Things we find unthinkable happen all the time. And I certainly hope I'll be more cognizant of that moving forward and enjoy my peeps - and all those He puts in my path - a little more instead of rushing straight on through to the next task.